Feeling Outed/Just Myself

Ever have those days where you just can't get things going, you can't really think, you can't really try anything because it just doesn't feel right? Well I have been feeling that way lately. I haven't written on my Blog due to feeling BLAH, I can't really put my finger on why I feel that way or why, but it has just been one of those weeks where I just don't feel myself, and I don't feel like writing anything.

 I know one reason as to why I feel this way. You know when a love just doesn't fit? You know how you know deep down that you can never talk to that person because they just don't know, or care who you are? I had been bitten by a love bug so hard that I felt like I had a weird connection with him. I felt like every time I saw him, I felt like I had known him for years, like he was a long lost friend. I had tried talking to him, talked to him maybe once, and it wasn't even really a convo, it was more like I told a joke and he responded. That was it. I couldn't understand the connection I felt around him, maybe in a past life {yes I believe in those} I knew him, maybe we were connected in the past life in some way. A long lost friend like I had said.

I have a weird ability to read people. I can see who they really are just by talking to them, or looking at their eyes. I get feelings around them, either it be bad or good, I get vibes off of them, weird yes, and I don't blame you if you stop reading this blog post right this minute because its a Heart-To-Heart blog post. Some people have dark pasts, I can feel them, some people try to hard, I can sense that, and some people with just a simple smile can tell me everything.

There was a beautiful older lady going into a store in a mobile scooter, as she passed me, she smiled and said hello, right at that very moment, I knew she was a sweet hearted person. Kind by just the smile on her face. I know I'm a weirdo but I can read people I swear, and I am glad I can finally put my senses to good use. I know how to use them, I know that I have a good sense of judgement, and I hope for it to stay with me.

After having these senses, I am glad to have them, but yet not to understand why I feel such a connection with a certain someone is still a huge mystery to me. I still to this day can not figure it out. Maybe one day I can find out what it all means, but for now he will remain a mystery. As some say ''Sometimes we are not meant to understand certain things in this world, or the next'' and I believe that they are right. I may never understand why or how.

So to end this blog, I just wanted to get my blues out, just yell to the world, get it out of my system, and to tell you all the truth, I feel actually much better! Can that be possible? Maybe writing is like therapy. Well I think I should do this more often. I also don't think that I help matters by bypassing my crushes profile ever so often, then when I see he is going to be doing something fun, or something with his gal, I think ''Ah damn look how much fun he has'' or ''I wish that was me on his arm'' oh well it will never happen. I just hope I can finally get back to my work on my blog, get back to my happy-go-lucky self, and just forget about my crush forever. I just kinda want to move on from him now, now if I could just follow those words and do it, but to tell you all the truth on the matter, its not that easy to forget about him, he is just that awesome, and wonderful,and beautiful.....See what I mean? I mean come on, I am trying to forget about the Bastard and then he pops in my head again!! Oh well wish me luck on trying to move on....I mean like the movie title goes ''He's Just Not That Into You'' I shall keep that in my mind....And keep replaying it like a OneRepublic record!! Later for now everyone....Peace!